Finally hired after 10months of job hunting!
I got hired, finally! I am a 2023 graduate and had my first job around November 2023 in the banking industry. I stayed for that job for 5mos only and resigned on March 2024 because I think the job and environment is not for me.
But life is not easy. I’ve seen and experience what life really is. A once student achiever in academe lost herself in those 10 months of being unemployed. They were a months of doubts, depression, loneliness, hesitations, and so much more emotions that I can’t name. But these times made me closer to God. I’d always talk to Him at night about His plans for me. In what path He is taking me to. Because at that time, I am more than desperate to accept any job that will come to me just to be back again at the workforce and feel alive again.
And now, God finally gave His answer to me 🥹. He made a plan for me. He listened to me. He’s always been there. Even before. Actually, I’m not that religious type of person. I do believe in God, yes. But, to be honest, I’ve never even read a Bible (I think the first and last was nong bata pa ako during our communion). I’m just not that kind of person who usually go to church nor talks about God.
But what made me REACH out to Him?
I was at my lowest point in life. Money, food, nor kdramas doesn’t work out on me anymore. I was not like before na, manuod lang ng Kdrama, tatawa na ulit. Kumain lang ng ice cream, okay na ulit.
I am not really vocal with my thoughts and feelings. I don’t have friends to talk about it. I’m not even comfortable with my family to speak about it. I only have ME and MYSELF.
And that’s when I realized, it’s one away or another, we’ll eventually reach out to God for help at the end. For His guidance. So one night, I tried to pray. I tried to talk to Him and confess all of my rants, hardships, what I’ve been experiencing. I silently cried to Him on what he’s planning to do in my life. Because it’s been months already and yet, none is working out in my way. Pure rejections and doubts.
But what kept me to patiently WAIT on His plan and answer?
I have high hopes for myself. I have a big dream for myself and I will not let anything ruin or break that dream for me. Yes, I’ve had my darkest days, but my plan and dream for my career and life is much more and bigger than that.
I just know that He will. At the right time :). Inisip ko na lang na those 10 darkest months were just a test on me and a bridge for me to reach out to Him.
But aside from relying and waiting on God’s plan for me, I also did my part on His plan for me. Because God couldn’t do it alone. I have to also help Him in making that plan or answer possible.
So, I practiced. I prepared for the interview questions. I used the time to gain certification that can be an advantage for the job I’m applying to. And most importantly, I showed up. There were a lot of job interviews that I’ve missed or let it passed because I have so many doubts on myself. Hesitations. What if’s. It came to the point that I would always confirm my attendance on the job interview and when the time comes, I would always back-out and cancel my interview. It continues for months.
But then when I started talking to Him, I said to myself that nothing will change if I’ll let my fear and doubts come ahead of me. So,I would always say and I etch on my mind before job interviews that, “Being comfortable is the enemy of growth. So I have to be uncomfortable”. “Just show up”. And when the interview was done or even if the interviews did not go well, I would always say to myself, “I still did great!”. And these really help me a lot. It helps me to conquer my fear on taking the first step for God to create His plan and answer to me :).
The bottomline is, you should not just wait for God to do it for you, you also have to make a move. Take an action. You and God have to work together for that plan and answer to come.
If you’re also experiencing what I went through, I hope that you’ll also able to find yourself afterwards. Talk to Him :). It’s feels much lighter when you rant on Him. Sprinkling good luck dust to all who’s job hunting! ✨