Male validation :/

I’ve always felt like I constantly crave for male attention, like this is so embrassing to admit, but I always try to look good for men and ugh I hate myself for it. Or when a man gives me slight attention or when I talk to a guy, or get intimate with them I get attached and start overthinking things.

Idk if it has to do with the fact that I grew up kinda uggo..I didn’t receive any male attention when I was in my teenager years, and it just started from last year when I slightly glowed up. And this weird subconscious gulit I have too maybe from my conservative sort of family, telling me when I was younger to not talk to boys, or now telling me only talk to boys with these specific qualities etc etc.

But idk, if anyone has tips, I would love to hear cause I really need some 😭.