Is anyone else here into alternative fashion?

I’m a weird bitch. I feel like I’ve just double whammy’d myself because I dress alternatively. Not goth alternative but niche dying 2000s Japanese subculture alternative. I like the way I dress. I’ve accepted it. I dress very femme in gyaru style fashion and I also love dressing masculine! I like the fact that I can pull off both. For a while I was confused because I actually dressed exclusively masc for years because I had been masculinized by other queer women. I did some soul searching and realized I just like dressing both. I’ve also been interested in lolita fashion because I’ve always wanted to dress super super feminine and cutely and y’all know they don’t like black girls to be cute! I also love cosplaying pink girly characters because again, people just don’t like seeing black people be cute. I love cute things!

I know it’s weird. I’ve been told I want to be white by friends and family and I’ve just been completely made fun of, even when I was a little wannabe scene kid at age 13. It’s a little isolating but I’ve made friends who like me for the way I am and there’s other black people in the community that dress like me too! I like being weird, but it hurts sometimes.

I actually deleted all my dating apps finally because of a rude comment I got from another black woman because she jokingly said I wanted to be white because of how I dress. It ticked me off and I told her that wasn’t cool before I deleted the app.

Are there any other black alternative people here? Goth, punk, scene, j-fashion, even cosplayers, etc. Or people who don’t consider themselves alt, do you find alt fashion cool?